STILL NOT OVER

i’ve waited and waited. please be done. i’ll write when it’s over. i’d rather tell a story that has an end than tell the day to day agony. it will never be over. today hurts. why is this still happening? the emails... the accusations... the the lies... the threats... the enemies that i have accumulated that don’t even know... the enemies that once loved me... give me five minutes to explain... but they don’t... it’s a career to hate me...

you hurt my kids... yes, they are my kids... i know they are yours too but every decision you have made along the way has been for yourself... it has never been about them... it has never been about you having them... it has been about taking them away from me... you would rather other’s have them as long as i don’t... just to prove a point... just to hurt me... at their expense.

i regret the day i married you... i regret that you are their father... i spent five years protecting you... covering for you... because i loved you... because i believed that you would grow up... that it was my job to stand by you... it isn’t my job anymore... too bad you left me because if you never did i would have stood by you forever... every time you packed your shit and left you lost a piece of me... and now you have lost me forever... and because of this i will do whatever it takes to keep you from hurting my babies... i’ll never give up... i’ll never stop protecting them...



i'll never be her again.
everytime you left i died a little more...
never again...
closure is coming...