Thursday, June 3, 2010

wrote this 6 yrs ago... applies more today... except the last part should say "sometimes i know it won't".

I will survive. All alone with nothing but a steady pulse.
It was there all the time...

I drowned it out and welcomed flattery.
I listened to hollow words rather than that quiet stirring.
I followed faces I could touch and not the one I could only sense.
And all the while the pulse got quieter, the din grew louder and I didn't even realize I had sold the rare and priceless for what was cheap and easy.
The hard earned for what could immediately be attained. The best for the good. My birthright for a bowl of soup.

The pulse is not as strong as it once was. It's not as loud; not as vibrant; not as clear. Sometimes I wonder if it ever will be. Sometimes I know it will...






2 comments:

Bethany said...

I think your insides are even more beautiful than your outsides

Donna said...

Maybe that should be, "sometimes I feel like it won't." Please don't lose the hope that it will, as expressed by the voice of your past.