today someone told me that i look really good for having had two kids... gee thanks... "for having two kids" i look great... maybe some people would take that as a compliment but i didn't... same reason i'm not flattered when someone says my hair looks good on a specific day... what's wrong with how i normally look?
it's not like this offends me or anything... i really couldn't care less... i'm happy with myself having had kids or not... i've worked really hard... i continue to work hard and hard work pays off... it pays off for all people differently... there are a lot of mommies that have a personal best that is much better than me and vice versa... it doesn't really matter because it's not about them... it's not about anyone else, and it's not even about comparing myself to the previous, pre-kids me... it's about me now, how i take care of myself, and how i feel.
i didn't start running to lose weight and i haven't lost any. i started running because i wanted to be a better me. i wanted to feel better and i wanted to push myself. this looks different for everyone but the effort is all that matters. to some people this looks like walking to the mail box every day and making a conscious effort to eat veggies... and i don't honestly think that my mileage and diet is any better than their effort if it is their personal best.
to be honest i'm super proud of myself and what i've accomplished. i want it for everyone else! not necessarily marathon running but whatever it is that makes them better.
p.s. i'm having a really hard time keeping my chin up and i got sad news today that topped everything off... there is only one thing i know for sure right now and that's my mileage schedule...
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I agree with all of this 100%. I started running regularly when I realized it made me feel good... It wasn't about my body... I felt good in my head. It made me feel "normal". And it is hard work... but all of us girls make a decision every day to get out there and run... and it's good for us. For our bodies and for our minds.
I'm super stoked about this blog. It's really good inspiration for me right now
running will give you sanity! thinking of you =)
All I can say is... your personal best looks ahhhhhmazing on you.
xo
Good post, Elissa. I agree. And on top of that, I usually think that ultimately what I have/how I look/what-have-you are blessings from God anyway. As if I somehow have tons of control over any of it... I look at it more as being responsible to take care of/appreciate/work hard for the things he's given me rather than, "Yeah, I made my hair look really awesome today." :-) Hope that makes sense...
I just caught up on some of your blog and I'm really proud of you and happy for you. Actually caring about your life and being passionate and loving are pretty brutal but they're definitely beautiful and worth the fight and I'm glad you haven't surrendered to life and being jaded. No one's perfect; I simply admire people who don't give up trying to live/make life the way it was meant/ought to be. I guess sometimes that just works, but a lot of times it seems like quite the fight. I'm also stoked you have such a good man to help you not always HAVE to be so strong and fierce. If any of that makes any sense; I'm not so good with words today. : )
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