i'm not gonna be a republican anymore

so i have decided not to be a republican anymore. or conservative. or whatever. i know what i mean. my identity is so wrapped up in this. my brother hit the nail on the head. passionate just to be passionate. i believe in conservatism because i'm a passionate person and everything else in my life is in limbo. it's the only thing i KNOW.

anyways, i intend to find another place to channel my passion. i think this has been a rouse to distract me from finding what i believe.

i guess what i'm trying to say is i need to figure out this whole "god" thing. i want him. i believe in him. i will follow him. but that's about it. i don't know him. i don't understand him and i have no passion regarding him. politics has been getting in the way.

so it's official. i'm not a republican anymore. i'm nothing until i figure out what i am.