it won't always feel like this

gabe was up all night and gwen was up on and off. both were NOT happy. i was running from one to the other all night trying to soothe them while feeling like i was the one that needed to be soothed. in the midst of all this scurrying around and exhaustion, i remembered what my mom used to tell me when things were hard.

it won't always feel like this.

i usually took this into consideration when a trial in my life was happening. i thought of it in a broad sense. but since my anxiety has become such an overwhelming factor in my life i thought i could apply it to small issues that feel big. like both kids screaming in the middle of the night. i said it to myself over and over again. it won't always feel like this. it won't always feel like this. there will be a time when they will fall asleep. eventually it is bound to happen. and eventually it did.

it works in a broad sense also. i won't always have anxiety if i work hard at overcoming it. i won't always have kids that are so needy. they will get older and i probably will miss it someday. i won't always be scared about money. i won't always be sad. these things evolve and change. many of them i have control over, and many of them i can adjust. some of them just have to run their course. but...

it won't always feel like this.