i forgot what this feels like.

today i am not tired. i am not tired! i didn't remember this feeling called not tired. it's incredible. invigorating. exciting. i am ecstatic to think that this could be my life. everything feels so simple today. even the not simple things are simplified. i have been tired for so long that i'm wondering what sort of perspective shift will happen. i'm excited what not being tired will do; what i will see and enjoy that i have been missing.

last night was the first night that i slept a full eight hours uninterrupted. not even once! a week ago two interruptions in that time would have been an improvement. things are shifting and i guess i'm just shocked how much it is affecting me.

this sounds funny but i feel like i've fallen in love with my children all over again. they are just so silly and fun. today i was waiting for probably five minutes while gwen tried to maneuver her way out of the car while carrying her new lawn chair. i was so happy to just watch her figure it out. she then carried it down the stairs, out onto the deck, turned it toward the view, sat down, and proceeded to read her book. she's just so great.

thinking of the millions of little precious things they do i feel that i haven't been appreciating. this not tired thing is pretty cool.