26.2

Stealing from my fb comment because I really really mean it...

"I am a better person because of these two women. Thank you for helping me change my life; for pushing to keep going and for talking me through the decisions that brought me to yesterday. Even more for talking me through the decisions that brought me to today. Two very different days both equally hard, but both possible because of you. I will never be the same because of your positive influence on my life. I love you both from the bottom of my heart."

There is a whole lot more to stay about the marathon and about other stuff but I don't have the strength to write about the marathon and I don't think I'm ready or even sure if I want to share about the other stuff, so that's all you get for now... Thanks to all you friends and family for the well wishes and for caring about this milestone in my life.

wrote this 6 yrs ago... applies more today... except the last part should say "sometimes i know it won't".

I will survive. All alone with nothing but a steady pulse.
It was there all the time...

I drowned it out and welcomed flattery.
I listened to hollow words rather than that quiet stirring.
I followed faces I could touch and not the one I could only sense.
And all the while the pulse got quieter, the din grew louder and I didn't even realize I had sold the rare and priceless for what was cheap and easy.
The hard earned for what could immediately be attained. The best for the good. My birthright for a bowl of soup.

The pulse is not as strong as it once was. It's not as loud; not as vibrant; not as clear. Sometimes I wonder if it ever will be. Sometimes I know it will...